My Valentine’s Day gift to me

February 15, 2010 at 12:21 PM | Posted in friends, personal stupidness, Sonya | Leave a comment
Tags: arcadia, friends, reconnection, valentine's day

This year, I gave myself one of the best gifts I have ever gotten – a friend.

Remember being a kid and all the people you knew and how you know some of their names – their full names – even still –  and you recount all the fun adventures you had and wonder where all that fun went?

This Valentine’s Day I got up (too early for my taste) and went to church where I got to do one of my favorite things – hug people.  (It was all fun and games until I poked my eye out on some short grannies glasses). I hung out with the family and the kid for a bit and then did something for me that I should do more often.

I spent the day with an amazing, sweet, funny and smart friend that I had misplaced years ago and found on FaceBook.

Re-connecting with people you I used to know is a scary trip.

• I am ever vigilant  to see if we will run into the reason we have stopped hanging out. You know, because usually I  forget what separated us and then 30 minutes into having coffee it hits me on the head. Then I have to smile and nod while I erase them out of The Blackberry.
• Also, it’s like meeting a character out of a book. I know all the back story and the basic elements of who someone is, but am still in the process of being introduced to a stranger. And while I know what has been going on in their life – this is the first time I am hearing how they felt about it, and the emotional tale always makes it more real.
• It’s been a long time since I was at the developmental stage they remember me at. Having that presented to me, and seeing a younger version of myself in their eyes . ..  it’s good, it’s bad, and it’s ugly all at the same time.
• Massive self reflection. Introducing myself to someone who already knows the core of who I am, well – it removes all the possibility of bull sh*tting them.  This alone scares the poopy out of me

But I had a good time! I caught up on a decade of gossip, learned somethings about my home town of Arcadia, and had a general sence of happiness that this friend has always instilled in me.

I really like being me. One of the best parts of being who I am;  is the people that I know and the friends that I love. Giving myself this friend again, was a wonderful way to tell me that I love myself!